The Girl
Theresa Reeves. 17 year old junior at Westmoore High School. In the Marching Band. Made 5th place at OBA with Gazebo Dances, our Symphonic Band made SWEEPSTAKES. Loves music - emo, adult alternative, R&B and jazz. Percussionist in training.
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Memories
...written on January 01, 2005, @ 21:41
again with my updating
I just finished watching finals at OBA my sophomore year - last year. I realized half-way through it that I was blinking back tears. I was crying for the people that left me last year, those that will leave me this year (Jessica, Garrett, David, Josh, Kendall, Scott, Jessica Davis, Austin, and Ross) and because I realized that I'll never have Wes on that field with me again.
Watching our show I remember what we used to do before we marched onto the field to say good luck to each other, I remember this one time we didn't talk all day but after practice before a game we found each other (all hot and sweaty) and both said "I missed you". I'll miss him coming over to "our spot" during breaks at practice, I'll miss taking him home, I'll miss hanging out at contest, I'll miss him teaching me to play trumpet and how to dance...This just sucks you know? I know I have to live my own life, but he was a huge part of my life and how do you get over the loss of someone who was so close to you?
It's dumb to all you people reading this for me to miss him so much, but he was my best friend and he was always there for me, everywhere I turned he was right next to me. It's kind of hard for me to accept that he's gone, I guess I'm sort of in denial and I'm hoping that he'll call me and tell me that I HAVE to come over his house. But driving past that street makes it all real, people have already moved in and are settling themselves.
It's a new year and I know everyone has resolutions, likewise I have a few of my own. For all of those who read this diary I hope that I can update regularly - at least every two days unless there is a reason. But in general I want to make straight A's, be a better person and be a more aware driver. These are things that I think I can make happen. I'm not going to set an unrealistic goal of being prom queen or some shit like that I just want reachable goals because I know I can reach those and I won't be disappointed in myself.
Maile just told me that her and Jared are back together. I'm happy for her because I know how much she cares for him, now I just don't want Jared breaking her heart. She's had so much bad stuff going on in her life that I want only good things for her. I guess all friends are like that huh?
While I'm talking about guys I'm going to say this: boys suck. Lately I've had the urge to IM every guy, text every guy and call every guy. I feel like a desperate little puppy dog or something. I remember the last time I felt like this, it was my 9th grade year it was over Ricky. I felt like such a loser calling him all the time and I feel the same way now because I'm doing that with Erik. But I'm going cold turkey because if he wants to get with me in the future then he's going to have to make an effort to talk to me. No more texting him and calling him.
Mom made me drive up to Blockbuster today, you don't know how cautious I was driving up there. I'm not off of driving, but I'm more AWARE of what I'm doing and I think that's why most kids get tickets, we're not aware of all the other cars. Erika and I got Anchor Man and Taking Lives, they were both pretty good actually. I advise that everyone should watch them.
missing you...(as sad as that is)
Theresa