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Wishing and hoping
...written on January 13, 2005, @ 20:41

It really does work, sometimes...

Yes I haven't updated in awhile, but I do have a reason: HOMEWORK! It seemed like the moment this week started my teachers wanted to give me a SHIT load of homework. Oh well, I've done every bit of it and I'm so happy, although it reeked havoic on my shoulders (but David helped me with that - LOVE YOU DAVID!)

Well I got my schedule changed and I was so happy, I got it changed tuesday and it made me so happy - it was the happiest day I've had since school started. Jamee was happy to see me too. We caught up on somethings, but she reads my diary so I didn't have a lot to tell her about, but it was ok.

I love my new Psychology class, Tiffany, Victoria and Addison are in there. The class a LOT smaller than his 3rd hour. I like Addison, he's really nice and it's weird because he just sits next to me when one of his friends sits on this other couch across the room, he sits in the corner of a couch next to my chair. Eh, maybe he just likes sitting in that spot. We took a test in there today and I got a 90/100, even though I missed two and we're starting "A Beautiful Mind" - which I haven't seen.

Band, I'm actually doing pretty good in because I can actually play the music. I've been so surprised with how well I play and I'm glad that I'm on the front row because the people on the second row REALLY suck. This new saxaphone guy who sits behind me and his little girlfriend really suck and they're dumb. I just hate dumb people who don't know what they're doing, I just get so annoyed. I don't know, that's mean, but DAMN learn your part!

Anatomy we have a test on tuesday and it's like we just started this freaking chapter. I finished my second page early and I was happy about that, but I hated people asking me for answers. Call me a stingy bitch, but I worked really hard for those answers. I think it's my period that's making me like this...OH WELL, I'll need to study this weekend.

History, the first day I was back in my 3rd hour I just smiled. Mr. Pennington was happy to see me back in there, I missed that class and I told the people in there so. And you know what I was right, being in that class made missing Wes easier. It makes me see that he is not here and that he won't be.

English we had to model a poem and we got to read it in class for extra credit. Well Jay Jay read her's and she just started to cry it was so moving and made her poem that much more intense. It sucked that she feels the way she does about her life because she's a really nice girl. We're reading Huck Finn and it's a pretty funny book, but I don't want to do reader responses and all these papers that come with it. We have a vocab test tomorrow with 25 words, thank god it's multiple choice!

Math we're doing all this multiplying sinxcosx=tanx and you have to verify. It's so freaking hard and we had a test over it today and I was the first one done in the class. I really hope I did good on it because I felt like I did, but you never know. I'm actually doing better than Garrett is, but then again I'm smarter than he is. Jessica is mad at Garrett again, but this time I don't know why. That girl can sure hold a grudge, oh and her mom might make me some food! I LOVE HER MOM! I hope she comes to watch us next year because it wouldn't be band without Jessica Hall's mom there screaming in the stands.

Hm this week, along with my mounds of homework I had to do some of my dad's work. I was so irritated because he just kept telling me to do this and that and it's like, "Hello, I do have MY homework to do." It was a bitch to look at something, type a number, look at the paper again then type the word(s) then do it all over again. He said something about money, I think? Oh well, he told me that he would look for a few weeks to find me a car. So I'm thinking like a month, maybe? Because my mom and grandma are like, "Well I'll keep reminding him."

We got report cards this week and I got 4 A's and 2 B's and I've got a 3.8 GPA. Well Erika got an F, 2 D's and 3 C's and has 14 absences and 14 tardies and all mom said was, "You should bring you grades up." WHAT THE HELL?! How do you make an F in spanish if you speak it? This I do not understand and I told grandma this - she called today. She's going to look for my flat iron soon and so I'll be looking good pretty soon. Erika also wants to move out fall break (we'll both be 18 by then) and she wants to get an apartment with Maggie. I don't understand how she'll be able to pay for rent, electricity, food, gas and go to school all at the same time. Then she kept saying that "we're getting a car" and finally I told her "no honey, my dad said he was getting his daughter a car." She just got all huffy, but it's like hello you don't even have your fucking license! I keep thinking, "I deserve this car" but then I feel bad for thinking that I deserve anything and everyone is like, "No, Theresa you DO."

Ah yes the whole "chica" and "babe" thing, he still does it. I asked him so nice to stop it and he's like, "Why should I change for other people?" But it's weird because I'm not asking him to change, I'm asking him to stop calling me a name. So I delt with it so calmly (considering I was on my period) and just put an away message up. I'm doing so good and he wrote something in his diary about highschool and how he should just let kids be kids and "fuck it" and blah blah blah, I'm not sure if that's aimed at me but I could care less. Because I AM a highschool student, but I'm not like the rest of the kids at my highschool (and I ramble on like I do care...sheesh what an idiot), I'm me and I don't have a clique or anything.

You know what I figured out? I know why girls eat so much freaking chocolate when they're on their periods, because sugar makes you "perky" and being on your period makes you tired. Your period makes your body ache all over - yes I just realized that. Oh and I got these new pads that feel like cloth, they're so great. I know it's weird to talk about this sort of stuff, but hey I got to let the girls know!

Oh yes Brandi, I'm so sorry that everytime you send me a message I'm away from my computer. You know I love you girl! We had such good times, and I'm sorry that I left you in 1st lunch...But I am happy that your car got fixed and this time it wasn't me who cursed your car!

Christina I miss you so much! Graduation we'll go TP and possibly with some eggs and meat by products. Did he e-mail you back? Because if not, when I call him I'll let him know that he should check his e-mail.

Yes yes yes, I drove up to 7Eleven to get some chips and mayo and as I was driving up there I clipped this construction bouy, I was so pissed off! I hate it when it's like PITCH BLACK and cold outside because I can't open my windows to see better - mom's car is REALLY dirty.

Well I'm out and if I think of anything else that needs to be written down, then I'll do it tomorrow because it's friday and I'll have all saturday to sleep.

Theresa

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