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Grand Re-Opening
...written on January 25, 2005, @ 18:57

Yes, my diary is back on track so people can read it now

First of all I would like to praise all those hard working Diaryland people for getting everyone's diaries up to date. BLESS YOU CHILD! Now I want to comment on this "!!" person: Hey you I'm sorry if you think that I need to "suck it up" because this is the only family I got, you're mistaken I have two families - my parents are divorced. "Grow up", hm let me see, that's what I've been doing for the past 17 years! If you're only saying this because of what you read, then I'm sorry you should change places with me for a week or so and see how my family is, they might seem nice on the surface, but it's not pretty if you live here. And if you are who I think you are...you know better than to say things like that. One last thing, if you don't like what I say and all you want to do is be a hater then I suggest that you just take your happy ass and just click that x in the top right hand corner of your screen. *Symbol man strikes again*

Feeling a little better about myself now that I did that I wanted to "think aloud" about my situation with guys. I'm starting to think that I'm trying to replace Wes with Garrett. It's weird because I'm doing the same things with him as I did with Wes, well not ALL the same things, but you get what I mean? Then it seems like I'm replacing James with Addison. I arrived upon this notion while I was reading Christina's diary and I came across his diary. I just kept reading it and reading it. At times during psycology I feel so bad because I sit next to him and I don't even talk to him and he looks so sad, but today Tiffany and I were talking about marching season and he started talking about it with us and his face just sort of lit up. I'm not so sure on these things, it's just sepeculation, but mind you I don't like them, I guess I'm experiencing a guy withdrawl.

The past few evenings I've taken the dogs for a walk and the moon has been abnormally bright. It looks so beautiful against the twinkling black blanket of the sky. I just wanted to stop and stare at it for hours, but I had stuff to do. I had to make a chart for anatomy last night, it took me awhile to finish it. In the end it looked really good and when I finally went to sleep and laid in my bed, my shoulders and neck were so happy.

We had a substitute in history yesterday and he was the rudest old man I've ever met in my whole entire life. He was moving people across the room if they were talking. Then he was telling us to "sit" like we were dogs. When the bell rang he wanted us to stay, no way I was part of half the class that went.

For the past two days we've had a substitute in English and we're watching the Disney Movie of Huckleberry Finn, it's making us all mad. It's nothing like the book so we're like, "Um, that's not what happened." or "Man they skipped the ransom part!" But at least we don't have to do anything AP in there as of now. Crap I just remembered that I have to do vocab, oh well it's not that much.

Again, Erika has gotten a call home about a potential fight in school. My parents just say, "Don't worry about what other people say." Don't they understand that she's going to fight whoever gets in her face? They know nothing, I don't like Erika and I know for a fact that she started everything, this is the kind of stuff that happened between her and Jackie and Samantha. I pity her, she's so desperate for attention.

Maile - sorry if I wasn't supposed to write this in here, but Sally wanted to know - bought some "drugs" this past while. It wasn't anything heavy and she's not proud of it, her mom found out (her mom asked her why she was so "mellow" and she told her mom) and now her mom doesn't trust her. I feel bad for her because it was mostly Tabitha's fault because she took the money and got the "drugs". I guess this means that when Maile isn't with Jared I'm going to have to be her "parole" officer. It's surprising because Maile is the last person you'd think would do something like that, but lately I feel like I've seen/heard everything and nothing really surprises me anymore. Like on the bus Jamel was telling me about sexual encounter with an old friend of his and Jamel is gay. I was thinking to myself, "Wow, 30 years ago people would've stoned him to death because people like him were the 'source' of AIDS. Now he's telling me this story like a girl would about a guy." And this morning I saw a blown up jeep in Iraq and the blood dripping from the inside and I just said to myself, "Yeah, violence in video games..." Plus I've lived in europe and that makes you have an open mind about sex and obsence things all around you. I think that's why America has the highest number of people infected with STDs, we don't talk about it, we make is taboo.

I talked to Kendall today and I do mean talk. It was great, I wasn't kidding when I said I missed him, I used to have a few sets near him and a class with him, but now nothing. I barely see him because he's in wind ensemble. Speaking of Maile is first chair and I'm proud of her, only it sucks that she didn't make it originally because a few people are a little angry with her. Oh well. I think Jourdan is challenging Megan and if she does I'll have to also because I HAVE to sit next to her.

My jaw has been hurting so bad, I'm going back to 3 1/2 reeds and my mouth isn't used to it. Man does it hurt. But I'm doing pretty good and I think it'll help me in the long run because I play my above staff notes a lot better with a 3 1/2 - that's basically all I play in our german march. Mr. Smith is making me very angry because he's always talking mess about the clarinets when it's the just the 3rds. All I have to say is I can vouch for me, Jourdan, Jessica and Mary. Just because you sit on the back row doesn't mean you have to really suck. I don't understand why I still practice...

Yesterday was Jamee's birthday. She didn't tell me it was her birthday so I didn't get her anything and I feel so bad. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMEE!

I watched battle of the sexes last night and of course the women lost, I hate that because they were so close! I think that I might enter to try to get on the Real World or Road Rules. That would be a pretty cool experience.

As I was talking to Kayla today in Math (I finished all my work in there) I was making fun of the fact that I've never seen the AP Spanish book because Erika never brings it home and we got into this discussion of Erika. She's like, "Wow I never knew." She says that I'm cooler than Erika because I make fun of people, she always laughs when I make fun of Garrett. Then Will and Tyler pipe in and say that I'm negative. I've never had anyone say that about me and I admit it hurt me. Seriously, all that crap about Garrett I say is really a joke, I love the kid. Maybe Will and Tyler were joking, but the fact that they said it and they thought about it enough to say it. Makes me start to doubt myself now. BLAH, I hate hearing people talk about me because it makes me doubt myself, when I know I'm not. I'm not negative I just like joking around and Garrett knows I am.

"Air is the answer"
-Mr. Smith's nice bandism

Theresa

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