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I've got to be fearless
...written on February 02, 2005, @ 16:29

I really don't want to, but I'll have to...

These past couple of days have been alright. I feel better because I talked to grandma about what's been bugging me and it's helped. I'm still frustrated, but now it's more controlled.

I don't see my parents because I'm always in my room, usually from the point I get home until they go to bed. They don't even call me out to eat dinner - oh well. So I get a little something then get to my room.

I found out today that the trumpets are "helping" us on the second movement. It was nice of Mr. Smith to say that we sounded really good he just wanted more volume to it. I really think I'm his favorite, why not I'm cool! Before band started today the wind ensemble trumpets are in the band room - where symphonic band practices - blasting their shitty music. I was so mad, they could've went elsewhere with that shit. We had a student council rep in there to tell us about what's going on, I could CARE LESS because I knew we'd have to play after she left. She left at 9:06 I didn't get out of there until 9:12, two minutes after the bell.

Our tests haven't been graded just yet in anatomy because Mrs. Berg wasn't here yesterday and we made her verify what we had to do. She left us some "busy work" while she was gone yesterday and we didn't understand it so she explained it to us today. It's due friday. Because we didn't understand it we talked the whole hour and I just might see about getting a job at Walgreens. That is if I ever got a car.

We took our unit four test today and I was the first one done. Not sure if that says anything because all I did in the way of "study" was fill in the answers on our study guide. I hope I did pretty good on it. Psychology was very intersting, Mr. Flemming told us some stories of Oklahoma because he was giving us an example of generalized stress disorder. We got this sheet that we had to fill in and we sort of finished up the movie, not quiet done, but getting there.

For some reason my back was hurting all day so after lunch I went into english class and just laid on the ground, that really did help. We got packets on A Modest Proposal, very intersting "pamphalet". As we got in groups and answered the answers in the packet Mrs. Crook handed back our tests and homework. I got a 78 on my Huck Finn test and a FOUR on my satirical essay! I wasn't expecting that on my test, goodness I actually did read it. Long only got to chapter four and made a 90 on it! We went to take pictures and I didn't take one so I sat along the wall and chilled. Emily had chocolate smelling lotion and Jacquline is like "It tastes like chocolate too." I wondered if it did and I ate some, BLAH! Tasted like soap. Anyway I got to eat some chapstick that tasted good though.

We got the Army recruter thing in Math today. We have to write a page essay thing on it so I'll get on that in a minute. I filled out the survey thing and handed it in. I had already done it in psychology a few months ago. Jessica and Garrett are cool now. Found out that Garrett asked Audrey to prom so he's going with her, it's weird because they don't really talk. Oh well.

Got home and had a little food and while I was watching tv the Army recruter guy called me and now he's coming over to my house saturday at around noon. I have to tell my parents that he's coming over, but I really don't feel like talking to them - bitches. I guess I'll tell dad. It's funny all my parents are in the Air Force and I want to be in the Army. Ha! Oh even funnier, I got this Navy Summer camp thing in the mail today. Maybe I should try that out too?

In a little more than two weeks I go take the ACT, I haven't even prepared myself for that! Man I need to do something. I think I'll look over my notes for ACT Prep for the next two weeks? Sound good to you? This is so scarey, I'll be off to college in around a year then two or three years after that I'm off to join the Army. I'm growing up, it'll be good for me to do these things, althought they'll seem hard in the begining I think that it'll do me some good and help me out later on.

Erika is still acting like a bitch and I could care less, she was talking to Roy yesterday and was like, "Forget every fucking memory of me." God I wish I could. She's so fucking rude to me and I'm thinking of untwisting my cable line from the wall because if I do that then all the TVs in the back of the house don't get any channels. How evil, I guess that's why I don't do it. One of these days I'll repay her for all the shitty things she's done to me. It may not be this year, but maybe next year.

I'm starting to get annoyed with how people are these days. Does everyone go through the "you annoy me phase"? Like girls who have to apply make-up during class and fix their hair every four seconds annoy me. People who get an attitude with me one second, then the second they're like, "HI THERESA!" and all perky annoy me too. I get moody too, but I'll usually wait awhile before I say something. I don't know anymore, I feel a little lost at the moment.

I haven't e-mailed Wes yet. I'm kind of scared that he'll be able to see my yahoo profile then get the link to my diary and read it. He'll read all the things that have happened to me and my past feelings for him. I can't have that, those feelings are IN THE PAST and I'm insecure of whether or not he'll not see me as his "best friend", but as a "stalker" like Erin. Eh, I need to e-mail him, I guess. If Christina can then I can too. But then he just talked to me so I'll e-mail him after I take the ACT, haha and I'll ask him to be my valentine hahaha! Speaking of I think me and Jessica are going to send some valentine thing from Garrett to Kerensa. We're so baaaaaaaaaaaaad.

"YA YA EVIL HOOD!"
Theresa

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