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What a shitty week
...written on March 24, 2005, @ 21:13

My heart goes out to the Slater family

Wow, this week hasn't been the greatest week for much of anyone. I'm not going to try to go in order because there are things that I have to get off my chest and I just want to be able to write them down.

Well Tuesday morning I found out that Garrett's mom was in the ICU and he was there with her. As I was walking down the hall with Jamee Andrew goes, "Hi Theresa." and I said, "Hi Garrett." I didn't even notice I'd said Garrett. I guess I was thinking of Garrett a little too much, but I apologized. After I got finished telling Kayla about Garrett's mom and how she was in the hospital and she had cancer Mrs. Schwarz called Jessica and me into the hall. She told us that Garrett's mom had just passed away, my jaw dropped and I went numb. How could such a tragedy happen to those good people? On my way home all I could think about was Garrett and how he was doing. That night I didn't want to take off the "Music for all" bracelet that I stole from Garrett, somehow it felt like my way of saying, "I'm here to support Garrett." Wednesday I thought about Garrett and I was subdued a little bit because I kept wondering how things would be once he got back, would I talk to him the same? Would we still be friends? I guess seeing such a horriffic thing happen to great people it made me nicer because I could see a change in myself, I was doing nice things for people. During math Jessica told me that Andrew told her (in response to her should we go see Garrett question) told her, "No, I don't think you should ever go over there." Of course you know Jessica was pissed. Towards the end of math Garrett came in dressed in black, paler than usual and looking tired to see if he had any homework. I wanted to cry, he didn't look well and it broke my heart. I talked to my mom about Garrett and what my feelings were on it and she told me to act the same, but just let him know that I'm there for him. So today Jessica and I, armed with a cake made by her mom and a card we personalized, went over to his house. He was happy to see us and he looked like his usual self. Jessica and I stayed for an hour and just chatted with him most of the time. I wanted to let him know about Matt, Kerenza and Lindsay going, but Jessica didn't think we should. We feel that his mom deserves better than those people going just so they can get out of school. Going there was as much for him as it was for us, I feel, because now I know that I can joke around with him and act the same. He'll be coming back to school on monday. The funeral is tomorrow and Maile is taking me, I hope that all those people who want to go just to go actually don't get to go because their parents don't let them. (Side note: I don't think that Garrett's family likes black people because his grandma kept looking at me funny and some of the things his aunt said just made me uncomfortable.)

Band has been alright. Mr. Smith has been getting on Megan and I know that I have to push to be the best that I can be everyday. Contest is next month - April 13th! A piece of our music had to be revised because not everyone could play it and sound great (the clarinet part on front row) so I have to work hard at the new version. Mr. Smith was talking crap today, it was funny too because he said, "Good morning." to EVERYONE ELSE! And I was like, "Oh it's on!" He was making fun of me yesterday saying that I would be one of those abusive cops you see on tv, I told him, "Only if the run from me."

I made a 248/256 on my anatomy test. I did so well and I missed the questions that I thought I missed. So it was good because I knew what I missed and why I missed it. Tuesday I went to Panera Bread with Maile and Stacey to study with them and we didn't do much studying. We were busying laughing at the people in the place. They thought the guy at the register liked me because he brought me my drink. Saw Matt and just wished that Wes was still here.

History was cool, got to see JFK assassinated. What I want to know is, what was Jackie doing jumping on the trunk of the car? I think that it was a conspiracy theory because there were shots that proved it to be two shooters, they came from totally opposite directions. I think Oswald was the fall guy and that's why he was killed. I called my grandma and she said the same thing. She said she was ironing and burned her hand when it happened. She said he was the greatest president and Clinton was the second greatest.

Psychology is getting really fun, we're learning how psychology developed. I got to read one of Addison's scripts the other day. It was really funny because it was a pariody of about five other movies. He's really good and I would not be surprised if, in 10 years, I go to the movies and see: DIRECTOR: Addison Chandler. I have too much fun in that class.

English, wow. I struggled with my part of The Raven. What threw me was the fact that I said these words wrong and Mrs. Crook corrected me and I was concentrating on these two lines so much that I messed up my other ones. But Mrs. Crook fed me lines and the class was helping. I now know that the class really does love me. I did my character analysis on time and did a great job on it - I think. I still need to get on my extra credit. BLAH! Vocab test tomorrow, but I think I'll only have time to take that and then I'm leaving that class at 1:45 to go to the funeral.

Math has been participation points because Mrs. Schwarz is selling prom tickets. She'll be going to the funeral tomorrow as well because she knew Cindy. Speaking of, I go buy my prom ticket tomorrow. Man I need to get a dress soon.

I finally got a tuner and money added to my phone. It's been a long time of me asking and telling my dad I need it. Found out that Dad talks to the kids of his co-workers more than his own. It kind of sucks, but hey it's not my fault. Seeing what Garrett is going through should make me want to be closer to my dad, but he's going to have to try as well. He's taking me to a beauty shop this saturday to look for a flat iron for me. I told him I wanted the Maxiglide that I saw on tv, but no he wants to look in the beauty shop. So we'll see how much they are, most likely we'll be ordering the maxiglide soon.

Erika offered up my bath tub, the one I clean EVERY week, so that this girl could wash her puppy in it. It wouldn't have bothered me much, but she didn't clean up after it. She left the towels they dried the dog with on the floor the cup on the side of the tub and dog hair in the tub. What the hell is up with that? Letting you know that has been there since like Tuesday and today I threw the cup and towels on her bed.

This week has been one of death and tragedy, my dad's co-worker committed suicide by shooting himself, after going to work earlier that morning because he couldn't get his kids back from his ex-wife, that 16 year old kid killed 9 people and himself (his dad died in a car accident and his mom was in the hospital for brain damage so he was living with his grandpa), and Garrett's mother dying. If there is a God, why is he letting these shitty things happen? And don't give me that shit about, "He wants those people in heaven with him." or any of that nature.

Christina isn't having the best of time in KY, her aunt is getting on her nerves and I feel for her. Her aunt knows nothing of how she feels so how can she be so quick to judge? Hopefully Jessica and I can fly and go see her soon or she can hurry up and come here! WE LOVE YOU CHRISTINA!

Theresa

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